i woke up and im not in love with you

The day I saw you, I did not feel anything. I was shocked.

Six months, I tried to tame my heart. Six months of talking to him and talking to my friends and talking to myself. Few days before I saw you I had to make a disclaimer of how you and I should just be friendly. I was telling you, but I was telling myself more.

Then I saw you. It felt nothing. My heart almost said "Nge".
I'm over you and I don't know if it was my sickness or my newfound love or all the weight I lost in the couple of weeks, but I know that I'm over you. Maybe God answered my prayers. I have been praying for guidance for a while now. I was praying because I was such a sad little girl.

It was three years in the making. All I needed was for you not to make a move. I needed for you to be still.
I kept holding on because you had your ways of keeping me.

I am happy now. You are too. I will always look at you fondly. I am thankful to have been part of your life. You were part of my life. A very big chunk of what I am right now is mostly cause of you.

Thank you for inspiring me. Thank you for telling me that it's okay to feel beautiful; it's okay to want more; it's okay to be an achiever.

I love you and I always will love the person you are trying to become. til then. :)