been a while, about time.

I haven't written anything here in a long time, I haven't been the blogger I once was, I haven't been ranting as much as I used to.

I guess it comes with the changes that are happening to me, subtly, I must say.

I told myself to take my time, and let things take its natural course, and it did.

I am happy.

Apart from any boy.
Apart from the new shoes or the bag I want to buy myself.

I am finally being just me and all of me. I thought I was lost. I felt like things were in full speed and I had to delay so much; well more like retard. I thought being the person I want to be meant forgetting who I was, and changing so much of who I am right now. I missed my old friends, I thought I had to let everyone go from the past. But I've realized I really don't have to. And I'm glad.

But I just had to breathe in. Take my chance, and find myself among people who are a little like me, wanting the same thing I want.

I just had to let go of the things, the people who were bringing me down. And in time, I will forgive myself and I will forgive him. And although that time is not now, I am relieved. I am relieved with how happy I can be.

It's been a while.
It's about time.

Right now, all I wish for is not to be such a spender. I wish to be able to balance everything I have committed myself to. Little things with big expectations.
But I have my hopes up for a sweet dear friend, I hope she finds her way. And my hope for my best friend is that he finds something worth the effort.

:)