Everyone plays

Every girl should know her worth. I mean whatever her appeal is, whatever play she has in mind, or whether or not she has a play at all, her value should always be known. [By play, I don't mean cheaters meddling with people's thoughts and emotions. No naman!] It's an animal world out there with scheming motives and survival of those who know. Of course now I'm talking about the typical boy meets girl scenario but this is true in girl world and gay worlds too. [Btw, you can skip my blabbing and go straight to the numbered statements]
It's good to know how to market yourself. It's better if you can read people and know what they're after so you don't expect too much, too little or read things the wrong way. I mean yes, "I'm old enough" already. I do make my own decisions. It's not like as if my sister can dictate on me. But don't naman take everything I say or do too literally. Okay maybe this is the part where my better judgment falters. My friend always tell me: "Dont give him reason to think otherwise". That is if you don't like a guy. But sometimes it's just fun to have a little chase, a little thrill. Sometimes it's all about the chase!

A very honest and interesting talk with a girlfriend (and with most of my boy buddies) reveal that most of us are at the stage of self appraisal. I mean, if you're not into a relationship and you are very much enjoying the single life, you tend to creatively market yourself. You spend money and a lot of time shopping, or in the gym, or even excelling in school. I mean it all boils down to bettering yourself. Making yourself 'look good'. Sometimes, people go overboard and become too cocky thinking they have the right to go sneak around. I won't be righteous and say I've never or whatever. But I think we're a little too old for foul plays. Right now, I'm at that point where my better moral self has gone on vacation and I tend to tolerate little plays. For me, as long as you're both in the game and its not treachery, not cheating on a long term relationship, not against the law, then it is tolerable. It is okay not to be dead serious about every girl you meet. It is. I mean, you can't honestly fall for every nice person that comes your way right! And sometimes you just love yourself more. People (atleast those I'm exposed to) are so engrossed in making the future happen that they fail to make relationships work. This isn't bad at all. It is a little sad, but not evil. [Although the romantic in me is screaming: what if she could be it, and you left her and let go?]

Whether people would admit it or not, we are all in some kind of play. Everyone plays. No, everyone should play. It is all a game. The rules are kinda fuzzy and all and most of the times, there aren't just two fixed players. Sometimes we become older and the games we used to like before seem too corny. Sometimes we long for those we played when we were kids. Sometimes we play with ourselves, sometimes there's some sort of autopilot playing our name. But before anything else, we should acknowledge the game.

1) Surrender to Love. Even those easy to fall kind of guys have a play, it's called love suicide. It's seems stupid. But they get satisfaction in giving their all. This kind of surrender may be liberating.

2) You're my little secret. Popularized by that song in my teen years, often it is blamed on that moment of lapse of judgement [Blame it on the wine, the scotch, the little blue pill or the moment]. Whatever little thing takes the fall, people who engage in this kind are obviously thrill-seekers. The danger in here is that what if the other person falls or the secret becomes today's gossip news... uh-oh.

3) Automatic shotgun. There's another I call the American mode of attack. Fire on, hit on everyone and hope one bullet doesn't miss. I find this kind of desperate and sleezy. [Hint: who do you know tried going out with everyone...often same line pa like I'm leaving for abroad, or I'm a changed man]

4) Best friend or boy-next-door. Probably this is the most common of all. This guy probably has three or four girl bestfriends from different schools or groups. He's very maalaga and he's loved by all girls. But guys hate him. I wonder why. This mode naman is harmless, it's a little irritating lang to have a best guy friend go for you, right?

5) Angel syndrome. I named this one just cause I want to. It's when you really like someone or you're crushing on someone. And he seems like un-attainable and all. His little smirk seems like heaven! He's like your total angel. Then you get to know him, and he likes you back.. Suddenly you're no longer in heaven and he's too human. No more flying, no more chase...no more crush. Good bye, move on to the next heavenly body. {hahaha}

This list can go forever. There are a lot of hybrids too. But I'd skip about a dozen and go to my favorite.

BEST-) Unnumbred because it is on a pedestal. Called: Right smack where it hurts or Thrill for the Divine Unttainable. I don't know how to name this one. Maybe it could also be called "Naisahan ka". Sometimes when you lose, you're caught off guard and someone really hits you at your achilles' heel. It becomes a waterloo but eventually you recover. Your master plan is fogged and your strategies float to sea. You can't help yourself, when you find one worthy opponent who can make your knees tremble, you just keep coming back for more. Now that's a play huh. A play on you. You are smart and you know he doesn't have Spartan qualities naman. But something about the unattainable that keeps you ever interested. And when you've passed the same monopoly route so many times over and over, you recognize that you're just really loving the game. Not the person.

But don't you wish, sometimes you can just put all the Aces and Jokers aside for one game without scoresheets, without bets-- a game just for two without rules, a game fueled by passion, a game where cheating is impossible, a game without losers.